How true that seems sometimes....Life is an endless cycle of ups and downs and ins and outs....It seems like the positive changes you want to make will never happen. That you will continue on in the same pattern as before, and nothing will improve. I am trying to convince myself this isn't true.
It's an uphill battle, this weight loss challenge. It is ridiculously unfair that it is so easy to gain weight, and almost impossible to get it off...add my PCOS to top it off....and you've really got issues. But I am determined to get this weight off. For myself.
Because even though I have learned to accept myself, finally, it doesn't mean I don't want to improve. Yes, I can look in the mirror now without being depressed. I can go clothes shopping and not come home crying. But that doesn't mean that I want to spend the rest of my life like this. My motto has always been: It is what it is. But maybe, just maybe, I can change what it is. And make it something completely different.
And you know the funny thing? I now have someone who loves me exactly the way I am. And this gives me even more motivation to make myself better. Because he deserves it. And I deserve it. And my world WILL change. Because I will change it.
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